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Two More Out: Craig & Suzanne Houchin

May 16, 2010
Craig & Suzanne

I had the pleasure of meeting Craig and Suzanne on my last trip to LA. Both had been long-term, committed, active Scientologists. But like more and more Church members, they became increasingly disgusted with the excesses and abuse perpetrated by their Church. After making their own thorough investigation, they decided they could no longer be part of a Church that behaved in that way. Following is their Leaving Scientology announcement.

Dear Friends,

We are Craig & Suzanne Houchin and we are here to announce that we are leaving Scientology.

Suzanne has been a Scientologist since age 11. I have been a Scientologist since 1984, and we were married in the Church in 1986. I am an OT IV, Class IV, KTL, LOC and L11 completion. Suzanne is Grade III, Permanent Class IV, KTL, LOC, PDC and Briefing Course trained.

From 1994 to 2010, Suzanne and I were key leaders in the Boy Scout Program chartered to Celebrity Centre International (CCI), and all three of our bright and wonderful sons are Eagle Scouts.

We are Patrons and Honor Roll members of the IAS. And since 1998, our family photo and success story have been used to promote the effectiveness of Scientology on a Church website. (Note: as of 17 May 2010, the Church has removed us from this website).

We got into Scientology to understand the mysteries of Life, to understand ourselves, and to become more self-determined and causative beings. LRH’s words from Personal Integrity had the sound of freedom to us, “Nothing in Dianetics and Scientology is true for you unless you have observed it…”

Even now, the words are inspiring. Unfortunately, the reality turned out to be different.

We did gain a glimpse into the mysteries of Life, we did come to better understand ourselves and one another, but every good piece of Scientology came with a new chain that we had to wear. It was always a trade. For a little bit of tech, we had to give up a little bit of awareness, a little bit of integrity and little bit more self-determinism — which, of course, was tragically ironic.

By 2001, we were wrung out spiritually and financially. The trade-off just wasn’t worth it anymore and we began to quietly drift away. But, as well-indoctrinated Scientologists, we didn’t dare to discuss our doubts with each other.  For “good Scientologists”, the band of acceptable communication, even between the most intimate people, is extremely narrow. So, we simply didn’t talk about the big white elephant in the room — until about 3-years ago. That’s when Suzanne broke the cardinal sin of the Church and began to LOOK.

For the first year she kept it to herself, fearing what my reaction might be, and swimming alone through a sea of shocking stories of personal tragedy that literally turned her world upside down.

We have been married for nearly 25-years and love each other deeply, but such was our indoctrination that she was afraid that our marriage might be in jeopardy over what she was doing. When she finally broached the subject with me, I agreed to look at what she was reading, to evaluate it, i.e., to discredit it.

Well, very shortly, I got my own severe reality adjustment.

For weeks, I resisted, denied, and justified what I was reading, but finally I accepted that there was just too damned much smoke for there not to be a fire somewhere.

After that painful reach, I withdrew. I dropped the whole subject and went on with my life. Then, some friends of ours caught on to us and made us talk. Thankfully, they joined us and began looking themselves. And all over again we began reliving with them the “WTF?” “This can’t be true!” “Oh, shit! I knew it!” roller-coaster ride.

Together, we all discovered the SP Times series, then Marty’s, Jeff’s and Steve’s blogs. We discussed, discussed and discussed forbidden topics, personal experiences, revelations, cognitions, and even wins from de-PTSing that we had never had the freedom to discuss before. It makes a huge difference to have others to go through this experience with.

For that reason, all of the blogs have been immensely valuable to us in this journey, but it was Counterfeit Dreams that, for both of us, finally stilled our minds, moved us from doubt, and marked a dramatic turning point in our journey.

That’s why it is such a privilege for us to make this announcement on Jeff’s blog.

We are no longer members of the Church of Scientology.

We are no longer Scientologists.

We are members of the human race, and as such, we want to help end David Miscavige’s reign of terror.

We want to thank all of the thoughtful and courageous beings who post on this blog and all of the other blogs. Every story, every viewpoint has made a difference on our journey.

And Jeff, from the bottom of our hearts to the very tip-top, thank you for telling your story, thank you for doing what you are doing, and thank you for being.

Craig & Suzanne Houchin

  1. sherrymk permalink
    May 16, 2010 6:28 pm

    Dear Craig and Suzanne,

    What a svelt couple you make. Beautiful.

    I’ve always, since you first contacted me, been at a loss for words regarding your support of me and I find that I am still at a loss. I had(and still have) never met you or Suzanne, yet you refused to be bullied and stood up for what you deemed an injustice to me. There could be no better expression of a true friend than that.

    I do want to set a few things straight. I read your “Declare Saga”. In it you stated that I did not see my golden rod for months after it was issued. Actually, I was sent copies of the declare by many friends immediately after it was issued. My declare was distributed all over LA by email..and ended up all over the US before, 3 days later, OSA pulled it off broad public lines. By that time, I already had numerous copies. To date though, I have not received a copy from any church entity.

    I believe that had I, Mary Jo and Geir just quietly went away and decided not to come out publically, like so many others have decided not to do, that we would have been ignored and our KRs, and Geir’s doubt formula etc parked on some back shelf, also like so many others have been. The current management could care less about correcting outnesses or handling KRs and as long as you “go quietly into the night”, they are satisfied.

    I, for one, have no desire to “handle my scene”, get back in “good standing” or receive the supposedly “standard” Comm Ev, nor do I seek nor want anything further from the C of S regarding myself. I do, however, continue to fight against the abuses, human rights violations and insanities that are woven into the fabric of the C of S, much of it simply an extension of Ron’s writings. When these are no longer part and parcel of the C of S, than the fight is over. I think it is a real shame that Scientology has come this far off it’s stated path, as there is a tremendous amount of value in Ron’s works, much of which I use daily.

    I admire your courage greatly and look forward to the day that we can actually meet.


  2. Aeolus permalink
    May 16, 2010 6:50 pm

    Craig and Suzanne,

    Congratulations on your promotion. So, you were declared a Suppressive Person for not disconnecting from someone on Facebook? Now you can find out how many of your friends will keep the Creed of a Scientologist and refuse to abandon you, and will then be declared in turn.

    It kind of begs the question – How many cut comm lines does it take to clear the planet? The answer is: a lot, so many that the DSAs and MAAs no longer have time to do a comm-ev, or any of the ethics gradients leading up to that. Instead, they must rely on the public to provide hearsay evidence and than carry out the third-party campaigns against anyone who won’t tow the line.

    This doesn’t even vaguely resemble the Scientology I though I was joining, many years and a small fortune ago. It reminds me of a phrase once used in reference to the Republican Party. It’s not that I left the Church. It’s the Church that left me. And both of you, obviously. Enjoy your Freedom. And your Eternity, which is and always was, yours.

    • Martin Padfield permalink
      May 17, 2010 9:01 am

      “…And your Eternity, which is and always was, yours.”

      Yes, yes, yes. That’s it exactly. That spiritual blackmail was run on me aplenty, finally by my OT VII FSM Pavan Fraser outside the SH refectory just 9 short months ago. I mulled this over and over. Could it be true that unless I continued to be part of this ever more exclusive club, that I would lose my eternity, as I was told directly by her that day? Could one organization have a monpoly on ETERNITY?

      The concept just didn’t make sense. That isn’t a Church, it’s a cult, pure and simple. The logic goes: “Scientology is the only way to eternity. The Church is the only outfit able/authorised to deliver Scientology. If you want eternity you have to buy into the Church and everything it represents.” QED. A kind of logic Zaphod Beeblebrox and Joseph Stalin would have been proud of.

      It’s a trap, an insidious lie, and most ironically of all, the exact reverse is much more true. A reasonable statement might be “Eternity is yours for the taking. If you want to enjoy it, better not try and do it as part of a divisive cult that will blinker you to the fruits of own observation and personal integrity, where your reading material wll be censored and the company you keep will be controlled. Where you will be expected to believe anything you are told, no matter how outrageous and contrary to the evidence in front of you…” I’ll take a rain check on that version of eternity thank you.

      • lunamoth permalink
        May 17, 2010 6:43 pm

        Dear Martin,

        I have never heard it put better. Exactly. Excellent.


  3. lunamoth permalink
    May 16, 2010 7:19 pm

    Craig and Suzanne Houchin are two of my closest friends in the world. I’ve known them for years, and I can tell you with no reservation that they are two of the highest-integrity, most loving, intelligent, talented, and funniest, people I know. Can you tell I love them? I do.

    Even after his decision to leave scientology, Craig remains, in my mind, the best example of what a real scientologist should be. He is calm, caring, always looking to bring two sides together, to create harmony out of discord, love and respect out of antipathy, peace out of conflict. He is philosophical, clear-minded, and can always find something to admire and respect in anyone he meets. He likes people, helps them at every opportunity. The man has integrity.

    Frankly, the current church of m does not deserve Craig or Suzanne.

    I probably don’t even have to point out that what just happened to Craig, perpetrated through a cabal of church terminals and certain soulless minions (Marie Warren and Jojo XOXOX), is criminal and completely squirrel. Under the guise of “protecting the church” another blatant injustice has been done for the purpose of silencing a dissenting voice. A calm, reasonable voice, but one that refused to behave in a shameful way to another being of good will, or to violate his own integrity, or to forward the party line. So his voice is a dangerous one.

    A good amount of fear on the part of the church has been exposed by this action. After all, Craig is well-loved and respected by those who know him, and his reputation for being a smart, clear thinking and analytical guy means that people listen to what he has to say. Dangerous, obviously, to someone whose purpose is to control people through ignorance and lies.

    What is so beautiful about this whole thing is that while the church lashes out in this way, exposing it’s own degradation and violating everything that it stands for, as well as several justice policies and The Code of a Scientologist, it won’t have any ill effect on Craig and Suzanne. If anything, it gives them the last bit of freedom they had previously lacked.

    Suzanne and Craig: Freedom. Congratulations.

    • AlexMetheny permalink
      May 16, 2010 9:45 pm

      Very well said Lunamoth!!

      I really liked the part of :”Jojo XOXOX” How 1.1 is that of her??


      • lunamoth permalink
        May 17, 2010 1:41 am


        The phrase “Jojo XOXOX” is the product of the creative mind of John Doe.

        Honestly, some people just insist on having fun when they should be quiet
        and well-behaved. You know, suppressed.

        Thnx for that one, John. : ))


    • Marta permalink
      May 17, 2010 2:57 am

      And this, your comment re Craig & Suzanne, Lunamoth, is a terrific examply of what I’ve come to respect so much about you. Your values and integrity are always above board, as is your compassion.


  4. Marta permalink
    May 16, 2010 8:54 pm

    Craig & Suzanne – Thank you for this well written declaration of your opt-out of the mess that is the CoS. Your disappointment with the reality of the scene is palpable in your Declare Saga. Everything you wrote is very real to me. I agree with your observations and conclusions, and very much admire and respect your position. Just excellent. Two more OUT!

  5. Mickey permalink
    May 16, 2010 8:58 pm

    What a great and thorough job you did Craig and Suzanne. With a bit of literary license, I have revised the wonderful statement of Pastor Martin Niemöller to fit your journey….

    “THEY (DM & minions) CAME FIRST for the LRH trained Class XIIs, and we didn’t speak up because we weren’t Class XIIs.
    THEN THEY CAME for the early Messengers, Mary Sue and original staff who worked directly with LRH, and we didn’t speak up because we weren’t a Messenger or an LRH staff intimate.
    THEN THEY CAME for the public OTs, highly trained and audited, and we began to at first silently and quietly speak with each other and loved ones because we weren’t easily fooled nor intimidated.
    THEN THEY CAME for us and by that time we were fully awake and making this announcement on Leaving Scientology, because that’s exactly what we have done.”

    • lunamoth permalink
      May 17, 2010 1:56 am

      That’s a good one, Alex.

      And we should probably apologize to the LRH Class XII’s, LRH’s inner circle and the highly-trained and OT public for taking so long to wake the f up.


      • lunamoth permalink
        May 17, 2010 1:57 am

        Oops, sorry Mickey, that was meant for you, not Alex.

        That’s a good one, MICKEY. : ))

  6. Martin permalink
    May 16, 2010 9:01 pm

    Well done Craig and Suzanne! Craig I’ve really enjoyed your postings and anecdotes. Thank you for going out in a blaze of public glory. Your coming out statements resonated on a number of levels. I hope many people who know you reflect and follow your courageous example.

  7. RenegadeX permalink
    May 16, 2010 9:11 pm

    Wow! Thank you Craig & Suzanne. So many aspects of your story are similar to ours and other people we know. I went a year and a half before even telling my wife I was not going back. And that was before we found out about the abuse from the top, etc…

    We too have become members of the human race, and it has increased our arc for life, the universe, and everyone in it!


  8. AlexMetheny permalink
    May 16, 2010 9:40 pm

    Dear Craig and Suzanne,

    I enjoyed your write-up.

    Craig you put it very eloquently what the scene is. You both are dangerous to the church because you are not robots or DM-bots. The weaklings that distance themselves from you, I really have no pitty for. Scientology was supposed to make us OT’s who are at cause, not school children that need a permission slip to live and breath.

    You both have many friends here. I salute you as the OT’s that you are. Even if you are not Scientologists…(ha,ha) You are also very good humans!!

    I was speaking to some friends yesterday and I told them that for me “rock bottom” was just common sense. What I mean by that is as a public I had fairly good common sense as does lots of human beings. Now, Scientology should take off from there and rise above common sense and into superior sense. Unfortunatly, a lot of Scientologists have dropped below common sense and entered lower than average sense and in many cases idiotic sense and worse.

    Hope you have a nice week and flourish and prosper. Don’t mean to sound like a “churchie” but that is a good phrase I feel.


  9. Its me again permalink
    May 16, 2010 11:04 pm

    Hi Jeff, It is me again. We talked about a month ago via email. I read counterfeit Dreams on your site. Seems like you had more adventure than most people have had in 3 life times. I have done a lot of research since we last communicated and found too many of the same stories about DM. I always tried to stay away from DM event’s because everything was always a big reg push and the stories about how he walked into the IRS and handled them, all the lost tech over and over again was unbelievable. I also don’t like the worship of him. I always thought “who the hell his he that people like him so much? I use to get people into Scientology, but gave that up years ago because it became more of “help the church” instead of help the individual.

    I know that you must be done with auditing after what you went through. Of all your stories I think the most evil thing I have heard is the gang bang sec checks and the reading of one’s auditing session to others at musters. I am OT V, Class V auditor and the BC up to Level E. I am lost for words of the evil that has been done to Beings in the SO by violating the Auditor’s Code, The Code of Honor and every piece of tech I have ever studied. I hope one day you will get a good CS and a good auditor and get this handled. Really, the tech does work. I am also hoping that the SO members who were involved with this and are not out have been handled. I understand that DM has made a big Group Engram, but still, something was out with the people who agreed and did this to others. This is evil evil evil stuff.

    I sent this article over to your friends at Scientology Cult andI though you might also find this interesting. In the new Ability Mag, Special edition…The Grand Opening: The Church of Scientology of Los Angeles ,DM is talking about what is coming this year. Wait until you hear just part of this:

    “Quite in addition to lost Knowledge, so, too, have there been lost LRH services. And yes, in some instances, those services never saw the light of day-and so were thought to be utterly lost. While even worse, the services were in plain view, but lost from all application. As for why: Just as lack of wherewithal previously prevented broad-scale dissemination of LRH materials, so, too, another kind of wherewithal prevented broad-scale delivery of these services-specifically, lack of delivery facilities. And that is what stands behind and is the full reason for our new breed of Ideal Organization. Yes, one could cognite and somehow make it up The Bridge when we only had a fraction of LRS’s materials available. But it doesn’t even vaguely compare to having it all-which is what truly makes a Golden Age.

    “So too, nothing compares with having it all on the route The Bridge. And that is why an Ideal Org is not a nice-to-have. It is a necessity. Because only then is it possible to deliver all of the tech. And with the Golden Age of Knowledge complete, what will now roll out in the coming months are LRH introductory services for everyone you should rightfully introduce to Scientology. As a matter of fact, you will soon see a whole array of new on-ramps at the bottom of the Grad Chart. And there is not a human being on Earth who will not find the answers they have sought on one or another doorway to our Bridge. In fact, it comprises what amounts to a whole new Grade Chart at the bottom of The Bridge.”

    Then the article goes on to say: Chairman of the Board described far more, including upcoming release which will speed progress to Clear by a factor of ten-and all of it becoming available in 2010.

    Come on, are we to believe that LRH was that incompetent? How do we know that there are lost services or if this services are ones he research and found didn’t work? How a new bottom of the Bridge grade chart? LRH missed the fact that there were missing services? What about speeding up the progress to Clear by a factor of 10? What the hell is that? LRH didn’t know how to do that? Are Quicky Grades coming back or what?

    And what about the justification for all the Ideal Orgs….for lost LRH services??? Lets give the devil his due and say this is somehow true…Shouldn’t the services go in the org, let the org cope and then when the income is high enough, open a bigger Org? Isn’t that how things work in the physical universe with finances? I don’t mind Ideal Orgs if the Orgs building fund could pay for them. What happened to Rewards and Penalities? If the orgs were busy making auditors and auditing, the Orgs would be booming.

    You should get the mag and read it…Unbelievable.

    • May 18, 2010 9:17 pm

      “I hope one day you will get a good CS and a good auditor and get this handled. Really, the tech does work. ”


      Having a friend to listen to your problems helps because it’s a weight off your mind…likewise being there for your friends and listening to their problems helps them as you ease their burden.

      Dressing this simple common Wog-sense in special terminology and being part of an exclusive little clique generally isn’t that helpful.

      If you get additional therapeutic gains from monitoring your galvanic skin response whilst addressing personal issues, then that’s great – but there’s tons of different bio-feedback devices available for this kind of thing…you don’t need a comically overpriced “e-meter” packaged with a load of pseudo-spiritual nonsense to achieve those therapeutic gains.

      The drawbacks of Hubbard’s “tech” far outweigh the benefits…over the years he sank further into paranoia and delusion…if “the tech does work”, why didn’t it work for him? (although I suppose if your ideals are totalitarian and your goal is wealth and power at the expense of others’ wellbeing…then yes, the tech does work – Little Davey Miscavige being a case in point.)

    • lunamoth permalink
      May 18, 2010 10:44 pm

      “Really, the tech does work.”

      What you may not have observed on this particular site, It’s Me Again, is that there are a lot of EX scientologists participating; check the name of the blogsite. Hence the name, LEAVING Scientology.

      That means there are a lot people on this site who have already had to re-evaluate everything they “learned” in scientology, or who are currently in the process of doing so. Many have already come to a conclusion that doesn’t agree with your statement above. The fact that it is your viewpoint is probably not objectionable to most of us, because I think at least some of us think that at least some of scientology does work. The problem, rather, is that you state is as absolute and as reality. It is not a reality, it is your opinion. You have not personally tested every bit of extant tech on everyone on this blog and found each piece did, indeed, work. Therefore you’re stating an opinion, or an un-examined datum that you have been (repeatedly) told. That’s ok, too (not because I say so, but because I’ve observed that kind of tolerance on this site).

      Just be aware that it is NOT a fact, and that stating it as a fact, that it’s all that would be necessary to straighten out the individual’s past auditing, will likely cause a lack of reality with many on this site, and give you a reputation for, yes, possibly being arrogant and/or not really out of the matrix.

      In addition, you risk making some very wrong indications to many who have real experience that counters your statement-based-on-opinion.
      Your was a heart-felt comment, meant to give another hope, I suppose, but if you would like to see where this kind of assertion has led in the past, please check out The Bridge to Nowhere post in the archives of this blogsite.


  10. Eleanor Gehrig permalink
    May 16, 2010 11:28 pm

    Me again, thanks for posting this. I probably got this mag and tossed it, but I will be on the lookout for it just the same. I’m glad I’m out. I can’t afford to do my grades a third time. What wankers.

    Craig + Suz, you guys are my pals, and I’m here for you always. Sorry, I can’t be more eloquent, but in the somewhat paraphrased words of the popular rap group NWA: “F— the facebook police!”


  11. Mat Pesch permalink
    May 16, 2010 11:45 pm

    Well done for having the courage to look and think for yourselves!

  12. May 17, 2010 1:01 am

    Craig and Suzanne,

    Due to your egregious pursuit of personal integrity, I can only weep. How dare you!? The audacity of you both forces me to make this announcement:

    I hereby connect with both of you and hope only the best for you in your pursuit of the wonders and beauty life has to offer. Mysteries will open and understanding will flourish. Burdens will magically disappear as you openly communicate. As others have discovered, just hanging around these blogs will offer cognitions and friendship that were once denied.

    Unfortunately, reading these blogs is time consuming and addictive so you will probably find yourself staggering around the house in your bathrobes for days on end, beds unmade, plants unplanted, floors not swept, and on and on. When the rains come and you can’t cultivate your garden, you’ll find yourself pumping your fists and shouting, “Yes! Now I have an excuse! Where’s my bathrobe?”

    Did I mention the weeping? Sniff.

    Much, much love,


    • Marta permalink
      May 17, 2010 3:06 am

      Once – LOL!

    • Another Jeff permalink
      May 17, 2010 3:21 am

      I hereby connect with you two too!

    • lunamoth permalink
      May 17, 2010 3:38 am

      ohmigod, Once, you can obviously see into my house through my computer …

    • Freetothink permalink
      May 17, 2010 3:34 pm

      That’s hilarious! I’ve been experiencing this exact thing & battling the guilt of neglecting other duties because of my thirst for the blogs. I resolved it by keeping in mind the datum “order vs disorder”, LOL

  13. May 17, 2010 1:22 am

    You know, with every announcement those left behind will be more and more pressured to look. It’s easy to hold a position when a hundred of your friends hold that same position. If one or two defect, so what. The mass is on your side. If ten defect, the position weakens. When fifty defect, you have numerical parity but the momentum is irretrievably gone to the other side. When the fifty-first one leaves, you’re in a minority.

    Opinion leaders count more. When an opinion leader leaves, those who relied on those opinions suddenly are left scrambling.

    Lebron James hobbling off the court affects the game more than a bench warmer.

    Critical mass is either near or arrived. Momentum has reversed. I hear all these forces groaning and straining to compensate.

    This is fun.

    Once again.

    Much love,


    • AlexMetheny permalink
      May 17, 2010 4:33 am

      Hi Once,

      I like what you said.

      I can hear the steel girders whining with the force put upon them. The steel aching and grinding in the cold breeze from the south. There..I heard it. One of the 2 inch thick cables just snapped… DM looking quietly out of his penthouse window chewing on his thumb nail. Thunderheads on the horizon and rain whipping against his window. His Secretary comes in and asks if she can do anything for him? He answers ” Get outta here you fuckin lowlife!!”

      • Freetothink permalink
        May 17, 2010 3:36 pm

        Wow Alex! I heard it too!

      • May 17, 2010 3:51 pm


        Pop! goes the weasel.

        Yeah, that’s what I picture him doing also.

  14. Joe Howard permalink
    May 17, 2010 3:55 am

    Well, the Church of Scientology is poorer today for losing Suzanne and Craig. Every place else is richer. Welcome, guys.

    • Joe Doakes permalink
      May 17, 2010 6:36 pm


  15. craig houchin permalink
    May 17, 2010 4:52 am

    Hey Everybody,

    Thank you so much for your acknowledgment and encouragement. It means a lot to us.


    Courage is contagious and I am pleased as punch that I could catch a little of it from you.

    I am so blessed to be surrounded by extraordinary and courageous women. Sherry, you inspired me. My wife, Suzanne, got me into Scientology, and she got me out; and our dear friend Lunamoth has been our trusted companion and rock during our journey.

    I am convinced that the pyramids would not have been built, the New World discovered or the West won, if a woman had not turned to her man and said. “Are you going to take care of this, or do I have to do it?”

    So, thank you, my women warriors.


    You wrote: “Enjoy your Freedom. And your Eternity, which is and always was, yours.” You are so right. Sometimes it takes a harrowing journey to find that out.

    Like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, we have always had the power to get home.


    I read your “Opt out” on Steve’s blog and commented that I had had a similar letter of my own sitting in my drawer for months. Well, the right time finally came. Your post was very inspiring. Thank You. Every trailblazer before us has made this possible.


    Thanks for your literary license. The parallels between then and now are eerie.


    We hope we are able to inspire others half as much as we have been inspired by all of the courageous people here.


    We have definitely begun to experience the tremendous welling of affinity for “life, the universe, and everyone in it” that you so beautifully described. I was sitting with Suzanne on the back porch this evening when it really hit me that, indeed, the only membership card I now hold is my human race card.

    The emotion connected with that realization was so profound that it actually disoriented me for awhile. For the past quarter-century I had, as a member of the elite of mankind — a Scientologist, set myself above and in judgement of the human race. I was not part of it. Now that I am down here among the “hoi polloi,” I feel like it’s my first day on a new job. In Scientologese, you’d say I’m in Non-E with the human race.

    I’m looking forward to getting up to speed!


    You wrote: “Scientology was supposed to make us OT’s who are at cause, not school children that need a permission slip to live and breath.”

    What an absolute right indication that is! Thank you!

    Eleanor Gehrig,

    Thank you! We are here for you, too. It’s your “in-eloquence” that we love about you!

    Mat Pesch,

    You and Amy have certainly contributed to this announcement, so I am thanking the both of you.


    Have you been looking in my window? There was a time when your description of the bathrobed slob glued to the computer would have fit me perfectly. Thankfully, though I still indulge in the blogs, I have now finally achieved the New Life that I paid the Church for. Ha!

    I have come to realize that true compassion, a truly open mind, and true personal integrity are more valuable than any OT level.

    Thank you all!


    • May 17, 2010 4:16 pm


      What you wrote to Renegade, I went through also.

      I’ve come to celebrate the mundane. Sitting on the back deck, enjoying the sun. Holding a child. Swimming in the pool. So many moments filled with wonder, the expanse of life’s continuum reflected in every moment of consciousness.

      The engineering that produced a chipmunk serves tribute to an intelligence so much greater than human pretense. The source of that intelligence we seek by ourselves or together. I have no answer. The vanity of one person believing himself far superior to another is par with one ant holding the same belief about another.

      Each part, no matter how simple, reflects the whole. So, when you touch Suzanne’s face in passing, celebrate. When you hand your son the car keys, rejoice. When you feel the sun on your shoulders, smile.

      Each moment gives occasion for awe.

      To celebrate the mundane.

      How much easier could life get?


      • sherrymk permalink
        May 17, 2010 6:55 pm


        This is just such a beautiful expression of exactly how I feel.

        Thank you.


      • May 18, 2010 1:02 am


        Do you ever feel like there’s this incredible theta link going on here? I sit here and read stuff and it’s like being in session: huge cogs, being very, very exterior. And the theta perception/link is palpable rather than being some lala land bit of nonsense. This morning I replied to a comment lunamoth had made pertaining to this or something like it.

        Maybe you’ve already answered this elsewhere, but I only have a short time each day to scan what I can and dash off a few comments–then on to the day.


  16. earthmother permalink
    May 17, 2010 5:05 am

    Dear Craig and Suzanne,

    Thank you for sharing your story. My husband and I had a similar experience in that I looked before he did. I sat on what I learned for weeks, knowing that if he didn’t see things the same way, it would get messy. Fortunately, he had already decided to leave, but didn’t want to say anything to me! It has become part of our daily routine for him to call me on his lunch break and ask me what’s new from the blogs?! I can hardly wait to share your story with him.

    I don’t believe we have met…yet. Hope to, with help from Lunamoth.
    Blessings to you both, and welcome to real Freedom!

  17. Mary Jo permalink
    May 17, 2010 5:41 am

    Dear Craig and Suzanne,

    I’d love to meet you in person! If you like, send me your email through Jeff.

    Thank you for this write up and for taking a stand. You will find that life will feel lighter and better every day; sunshine is a great disinfectant!

    I was not affected by the FB cops because I did not have a FB account then! I was very moved by your story and how you defended Sherry. We “out here” understand loyalty and friendship and support in a way that is truly odd by those still “in there”. They are two different worlds.

    So I love how we find each other again or newly and can so quickly bond, even in our differences. Just our allowing ourselves to allow other existences, experiences and emotions is such a healing and beautiful thing!

    Welcome, and thank you again for your honest and courageous stand!

    Mary Jo

  18. Suzanne permalink
    May 17, 2010 6:19 am

    Hi everyone, it’s Suzanne. Also known as….(drumroll)

    ….(she slowly removes her mask)

    ….ButterflyChaser (muffled gasps from the audience). ha ha

    Wow. Thank you, all you groovy people, for your support and offers of friendship. It means a great deal to us.

    It’s been an interesting couple of days. And not what I expected. What I expected was the major “bummer-fest” I’d replayed in my mind again and again over the past few years. As it turned out – this has been one of the most joyful days of my life.

    It’s strange how taking the plunge and making the decision to officially resign from the church gives one such tremendous relief, havingness and space. However, with that, I want to say that the decision to “out” yourself to the wider Scientology community rests with each person individually. This was our time and we knew it – like salmon going to spawn. One must feel it in one’s heart before one takes action and should never be “guilted into it”. That’s the old Church way. Screw that jazz!

    It may sound strange but this has been a beautiful gift to us. (Sorry, I know that sounds a little gooey-New-Age’y, but I have no other way to describe it.) Suddenly, we knew our own mettle; we knew who we could count on and who we couldn’t; and we knew who unconditionally loved us and who could easily “dispose of us quietly, without sorrow” despite many years of friendship and service. I even got a tiny glimpse of what my relatives must have felt like who were killed by the Nazis in the Holocaust – and I didn’t have to die for it! If this isn’t a gift – I don’t know what is!

    Craig and I are lucky in that the MOST important people in our lives are STILL in our lives. This has made it easier for us than many others with family still entrenched. We have abundant friendship, family and love in our lives and more on the way. Lots more. Especially with all you beautiful folks.

    I know I’ve said this before, but the intelligent interchange on this blog has made us contemplate many profound questions. Not just in regard to Scientology, but the bigger “Meaning of It All”. There are some damned bright people who post here. Oh, and I would like to brag that Lunamoth is one of my dearest friends, so you had all better be nice to me. : )

    By the way, I am a photographer, filmmaker, permaculturist/gardener and so is Craig. The two of us met at UCLA Film School back in the day when they were making something called “film”. Just wanted to throw it out there that the two of us are artists. Craig is also a writer. Yeah, you probably guessed that.

    OK. That’s long enough. Love to you all.

    Suzanne Houchin (aka ButterflyChaser)

    • Mickey permalink
      May 17, 2010 12:45 pm

      Oh Chaser of Butterflys!! You and lunamoth, BFFs, too!! It all makes so much sense now!! You two have been a treat and a half to exchange new and forming ideas with!! Of all the posters on Jeff’s blog (and Monte, too), I’ve enjoyed such out-of-the-box, beyond what we think “reality” truly is, offerings from you all. It’s been the subject matter way beyond what I’ve found even Scn offered, radical to the core! You had me at Krisnamurti!

      I get the feeling if we were to ever convene in person sometime, somewhere, and share ideas, oh my! very little sleep would be occurring. I almost PMed you via the ESMB board. I am so amazed at how ex’s practice the fine art of being “open minded” and explore the plethora of spiritual options that we had no idea existed “out there”, while in, because we were all so under the threat of banishment and punishment for doing nothing more than looking and asking! What a swing in the pendulum, eh?

      And so Suzanne, fellow seeker, keep Chasing those Butterflys….. it is an infinite chase into eternity.

  19. May 17, 2010 6:30 am

    When I hear of someone leaving the “church” I’m happy. When I hear that they are no longer Scientologists at all I go into a Q and A about my own eternity, as I’m quite low on the Bridge. I’d like to know I’m a being and not just a body, so while I’m very happy for this awesome couple and wish them all the best in the world, I sit in fear of what comes after we die. Silly, eh?
    Geez, could I be more honest and open with you all right now? I think I’m blushing.
    ARC everyone!

    • sherrymk permalink
      May 17, 2010 8:37 am

      Dear IO,

      My friend, your eternity is not at stake. How could you be anything else than an immortal being? With or without Scientology. But that is something we each have to discover, or not, for ourselves.

      For me, I never doubted it. Way before Scientology, I had no doubt. But that is me. It really is only the Western cultures that view a “one lifetime” type of existence.

      It seems that the nature of your fear has been brought on by the very indoctrination that exists as contradictions in Scientology. “Every man woman and child” are NOT at stake determined by what you do “in Scientology”. Be the best you can be. Commit random acts of kindness. Care about others, help your neighbor, take care of your family. Be a decent human. It will all be right in the “end”. We all die. It’s how you live that makes the difference.


      • John Doe permalink
        May 18, 2010 2:57 am

        Wow. Well said.

    • Mickey permalink
      May 17, 2010 1:01 pm

      IO… be not afraid my friend. I was in Scn over 25 years and still “low on the bridge” per their “official” labeling of me, but oh so HIGH on curiosity and inquisitiveness. Please know that burning desire to get your question answered will come via not finding any sort of universal “theology” or truth…. all questions you ask are only answered from a universal experience. It is an abstract idea and found not necessarily in any one path, this experience. Keep an open mind and let that “inner voice” we all have be your guide. Looking within, meditation, contemplation are NOT HARMFUL to your spiritual or physical health!!

      If you ever saw the movie, “What The Bleep Do We Know”, there’s a great line from Fred Alan Wolfe (Dr. Quantum) which goes, “there is no out there, out there”. Contemplate that one! Watching this movie many times, was one of the first “open minded” and “reasonable” and guilt-free actions I did after finding myself exactly where you are now in the journey. Perhaps viewing it for yourself might be a great place from which to launch. I wish you well….

    • Another Jeff permalink
      May 17, 2010 2:13 pm

      Idle Org, You do NOT need the church to go up the Bridge. Contact John Nunez or any of the top trained guys out there delivering it. Oh and the OT levels, Ls, Superpower are all on the internet. Dont fret dude!

    • Freetothink permalink
      May 17, 2010 3:50 pm

      IO, don’t assume that not being a Scientologist means you think you’re only a body & nothing comes after death. I’m betting that millions of people out there know deep down inside that they are spiritual beings & not their body & the great majority of them have never studied Scientology. I believe that this is one of the great false datum Scientologists are given is that we are the only ones that know this.

      I can’t speak for Craig & Suzanne but that’s just my 2 cents.

    • lunamoth permalink
      May 17, 2010 4:36 pm

      Not silly, Idle Org! Welcome to the human race.

      The question you just expressed has been expressed by people since, hell, I don’t know, very nearly forever. It’s called a spiritual quest, and apparently you’re on one. Look around. You’ve got A LOT of company : )

      Nobody can give you certainty that you are an immortal being, but I can tell you with certainty that I know you are, for what that’s worth (maybe not much, and no offense taken – I understand how this works).

      Some people found the certainty you’re looking for in scientology (back in the day), some did not. Some have found it through study of Buddhism, Christianity, Wicca, etc., or just by observing life. Some have always had it and just took it with them onto their chosen spiritual path. I personally feel every being KNOWS their own true spiritual nature/immortality, and only needs to strip off what lies between them and it, what makes them doubt what they already know. That’s MY viewpoint. You undoubtedly have your own, and now you’re going to be able to decide what that is without undue influence by “an authority.” That’s actually the fun part. I wouldn’t worry about it. This is the game, and you are fully equipped to play it.

    • May 17, 2010 5:45 pm

      Idle Org,

      Not to worry. It’s far better to realize exactly where you are than to pretend a status you really don’t have.

      Most Scientologists who are “low on the bridge” have exaggerated concepts of what they will be able to accomplish as an “OT”: ” God, when I’m OT I’ll be able to melt bridges, walk through walls, predict lottery numbers and turn spring foliage bright purple just for a joke. Whew!”

      The truth is that every inability expresses an ability. You have engrams because you can make pictures. You have a problem because you can generate force/counter-force, postulates/counter-postulates, intentions/counter-intentions. You ARC break because you can generate ARC in the first place. BEHIND EVERY INABILITY IS AN ABILITY.

      All that auditing and the bridge accomplish are getting a person to find his ability, help him find what he and others are doing (ability.) Your basic ability and knowingness are always with you.


      Auditing doesn’t so much add to you as subtract misused ability so you aren’t fighting your own ability (double ability–one used against the other, exhausting) or allowing others to fight your ability (still exhausting.)

      Now regaining your knowledge is a wonderful thing. But it’s always been there. And regaining your abilities are also wonderful. But, you’re using and misusing them right now.

      In the early seventies, I saw an old-timer OT actually change his appearance right in front of us. We all saw it. About a dozen of us. He was just demonstrating the ability to mock something up. But he couldn’t mock up a Porsche and drive off. There are all sorts of physics and dynamics on many levels to contend with.

      One thing I discovered early after I left the church was that the thetan reads before the meter.

      Theta knows. The meter just represents that knowing.

      Some auditor is assessing a list on you and looks up and tells you, “Idle Org, yappity-yap is your item.” And you look at him and you just know it isn’t, so you say, “Nope, gabbity-do is the thing. Been bothering me for over two thousand years.” And if you were confident in what you knew, the meter would blow down and F/N.

      But you would know before the blowdown of the needle, and you would know if you had F/N’d before the meter did. Maybe nano-seconds, but still before.

      You may believe you need the auditor and meter to tell you about yourself, but that’s a belief telling you something that’s a lie. And when you get enough auditing or enough confidence in yourself, you would look at that belief yapping away and telling you bullshit and say, “Nope, that’s bullshit. It’s gabbity-do, and that’s all there is to it.”

      And you’re sitting there brimming with “grim” confidence, not a smile near your face, just serene in your knowing. And a fixated auditor with misunderstoods would think you don’t have very good indicators because you didn’t laugh and smile and originate something memorable that he could write down as a quotable cognition.

      All I’m saying is trust yourself and your own ability and your own ability to know.

      And as for “going up the bridge,” read about theta/entheta ratios. LRH wrote that auditor plus pc is greater than the bank. And that’s true. But, a little secret. Free theta can disenturbulate entheta on a gradient–even without an auditor. Anything that frees theta and converts entheta to theta moves you up the bridge. Even taking a walk or getting a sought-after kiss. The point is to continue to use our free theta to free up more theta, both in yourself and in others. You’re probably getting cogs and case gain just reading these blogs.

      Studying the material from the fifties and applying it can give you tremendous OT gains. Ron was really researching OT phenomena back then. Much of what came later was an attempt to create a gradient from a person’s current lower case state to a point where he could actually understand and regain those OT abilities.

      You just have to pay attention to end phenomena, when to stop and how to rehab those ep’s if you overrun them. I don’t know what your training is, but if you have access to the Tech Volumes, get familiar with the material on end phenomena and rehabs.

      If you study the axioms and all that earlier material you can even see the NOTs material as simply an offshoot of something LRH had discovered way back then. And if you’re pretty well trained, you could grab ahold of all of that stuff and just say,” fuck it,” and handle it on your own. Or, if you know your limitations and don’t like picking yourself up off the ground after going anaten for two weeks straight, you might seek out an auditor who can help you with what you want handled.

      And being afraid of what happens when one dies is mostly a consideration, postulate or opinion stuck in some incident you or someone else is holding onto. Some auditors and preclears were handling this stuff with the material right out of DMSMH. Simple incident running. Repeater technique. Earlier similar if it doesn’t resolve.

      Even if you’re clear you can run DMSMH stuff on a body thetan–you’re clear;he’s not (oh my gosh, did I say that?) Now, I don’t recommend it unless you really, really, really, really know what you’re doing. Did I mention really knowing what you’re doing? I mean really.

      Study up. Get trained.

      Or you can practice yoga and meditation and just come to peace with unwanted ideas and feelings. What the heck, huh? I’m not a Scientologist, so pick your own elixir.

      happy hunting,


  20. craig houchin permalink
    May 17, 2010 3:09 pm

    Idle Org,

    Regarding your concern for the afterlife, please don’t let our decision discourage or influence you. In the right hands, Scientology can be amazing and it is apparently fully available outside the Church. Scientology books, even full basics packages are readily available outside the Church. Read them, get auditing from a caring, compassionate person (to my mind a pre-requisite and senior to training).

    Just know that you don’t HAVE TO stop with Scientology if you don’t want to. That’s the Church’s game and it never made any sense. LRH talked about all of the research he had done, studying other religions, eastern and western philosophy, etc. Why can’t you do the same?

    As Suzanne put it, there is an enormous buffet of spirituality, knowledge and thought available to you and you don’t have to just stick with one small part of it.

    Your eternity is yours to make of it what you will. Have fun!

  21. Freetothink permalink
    May 17, 2010 4:00 pm

    Wow, what a beautiful & inspiring family! Thanks for coming out & sharing your story. I can see that your sons have 2 very strong “rocks” that set a very good example for them.

    Craig, although I haven’t officially come out on the blogs yet, I’ve experienced a similar disorientation after I resigned. My Universe was kind of reeling but in a good way. I rapidly realized that just as the Church can’t take away my eternity, it can’t take away either my ability to create new anchor points & my own Universe. I’m gradually grabbing new stable data. As a matter of fact, I’m creating my new stable data, LOL.

    Hope to meet your family in the near future.

  22. Sinar permalink
    May 17, 2010 5:59 pm

    Welcome to the Indies – Craig & Suzanne! The water’s great and not so stifling here, I salute your courage and integrity.

    Not sure if it’s just my computer, but my Firefox browser seems to have problems opening the document referenced with Acrobat.

  23. lunamoth permalink
    May 17, 2010 6:28 pm


    Try it again? I, too, am using Firefox, with no trouble opening the document.

    Also, not to put too fine a point on it, but Craig and Suzanne are not Indies. I guess we need a new word that includes ex’s as well. Maybe “Outies?”

    OK. Maybe not.


    • May 17, 2010 7:16 pm

      you nailed it! (using Suzanne’s words).
      THAT’S THE WORD! :) :) :)

      Love, Vadim

    • craig houchin permalink
      May 17, 2010 9:23 pm

      Outies works for me!

    • Sinar permalink
      May 17, 2010 9:35 pm

      Good Point Luna,

      I guess I meant more of a broader sense of Indie – as in free to do what you really want or think and not having your “eternity” monopolized. I consider Jeff as an Indie – though he’s actually an as you say Outie.

    • Marta permalink
      May 18, 2010 12:57 am


      I’ve been using Outie for a little while, too, usually in a string like “Indies, Outies, Exs, Nons, Anons” and adding “whatever” on the end :-)

      • lunamoth permalink
        May 18, 2010 2:53 am

        HA! Well, it seems to be a good term for people who were once in the
        church but are no longer, whether they are indies or ex’s, so it’ll probably be used for that.

        Does that make those still in “innies?” I mean, it’s pretty playful to refer to “innies” and “outies” and makes it kinda hard to be too serious about the whole thing!

  24. Joe Doakes permalink
    May 17, 2010 6:47 pm

    Craig & Suzanne (ButterflyChaser), thanks for actually coming out publically. I am a firm believer in the idea that as more and more people publically denounce the CoS (regardless of their beliefs about Scientology as a subject) the easier it becomes for others.

    When I found out about the abuses going on (Truth Rundown, SP Times) I was excited to be part of the group of whistle blowers and those leaving. The idea that a change was on the horizon was bright and seemed imminent. But as I looked further and discovered this crusade had been going on for 25+ years I became despondent. That quickly changed back to hope though.

    The difference from that era to this era is the internet and the ability to communicate broadly and easily via so many channels. By you two publically departing the CoS you’ve made it THAT much easier for another/others to confront doing the same. Thank you for doing it that way instead of going quietly into the night.

    (But knowing Suzanne, I can’t imagine her doing anything quietly…)

    • lunamoth permalink
      May 17, 2010 8:10 pm

      Hey, Suzanne, this guys apparently does know you… : )

    • Mockingbird6 permalink
      May 17, 2010 9:59 pm

      Hey Joe Doakes,
      Another difference since 25 years ago is the number of people being blown away so hard that they have to wake up–the number of footbullets; sour sessions, etc.–as DM has increased his mastery of “Slandered Tech.” And once a person wakes up, most of us don’t want to go back to sleep again.

      • AlexMetheny permalink
        May 17, 2010 11:54 pm


        “Slandered tech” = I love it!!

  25. Just Me permalink
    May 17, 2010 6:50 pm

    This is my from a Blackberry. Will see how it goes.

    Craig and Suzanne — it’s sooo nice to meet you. I now have you located. I’m from your neck of the woods (or was when I was in the CoS).

    Your story is so wonderful, yet not a rare one, I am betting. Thank you very much for sharing it with us.

    And how wild is it that you guys and Sherry and Mary Jo have not yet met IRL!

    Like others here I look forward to us all raising a glass together one day.

    And Lunamoth, the more you talk, the more I think I might already know you. If you want, please ask Jeff for my email address and mail me direct — I’ll tell all.

    I’m liking all this tribe stuff we have going here. Onward and upward!

    Just Me

  26. May 17, 2010 7:07 pm

    Craig, Suzanne!
    I’m so very happy for you! I’m afraid I’m just as happy as you are having finally become finally free from $cientology.

    Suzanne aka ButterflyChaser, you cracked me with laughter. ;) Thank you very much for your kind comments. I could just feel the kind of person you are through your posts . Now I can see you, too. You and Craig are great and true friends to people around you and beyond!
    God’s powers to both of you!

    I can’t put everything good about your announcements into words so I share with you my feelings about your new life through this song:

    Welcome to the REAL world. ;)
    The world is fine – even without scientology, isn’t it?

    • May 17, 2010 7:29 pm

      This video of What a Wonderfule World is even better than the one above:

      • craig houchin permalink
        May 17, 2010 9:26 pm


        Beautiful. That Louis Armstrong song is one of our favorites.

    • lunamoth permalink
      May 17, 2010 8:46 pm

      Beautiful. Gorgeous. *Sigh*

  27. brendon permalink
    May 17, 2010 7:10 pm


    I enjoyed your post and your declare saga. You and Suzanne sound like a cool couple!

    Years ago in one of the critical discussion groups there used to be a poster whose .sig file said something like: “Your SP Declare is waiting for you at the end of the Bridge. Sign up now for your next step.”

    Well, congratulations on making it!

    I do wonder about those still in. With the departures of people who appear to actually be able to think for themselves, the concentration of the DM-bots gets stronger among those who remain. The last few hold outs, together…I just think there is a probability for some serious strangeness ahead. (As if the situation isn’t strange enough already!)

    • craig houchin permalink
      May 17, 2010 9:22 pm


      Thanks. I’ve made it! Ha.

      And you are right. As the circle tightens, the insanity will rise, therefore, OUR sanity and compassion need to rise in greater proportion. Even compassion for David Miscavige. If you haven’t already, start working on that one now. It might be tough to chew.

  28. craig houchin permalink
    May 17, 2010 7:30 pm

    Hey All,

    Posts keep appearing behind where I thought I’d already been, so forgive me if I haven’t thanked you directly. Here’s another stab at some of those I’ve missed.

    Martin Padfield,

    SPIRITUAL BLACKMAIL. That’s it alright. It appears that many of us have had the same kinds of experiences with the Church.

    Joe Howard (Dan),

    Thank you. We do feel welcomed here and, most importantly, we feel free to communicate and to be who we are. Thank you all for that.


    Thank you. We’re happy to meet whenever. Anonymity assured. To all who wish to contact us directly you can send us private messages on Facebook. Our friends list is only visible to our friends. Or, if you are more comfortable through hushmail.


    Thank you. It’s good to be out in the sun.

    Joe Doakes,

    Hooray for the internet! It makes the courage of those dissenters from the early 80s even more astounding that they had to go it so alone.

    Just Me,

    You’ve piqued our curiosity. Please contact us through the above avenues or through Jeff.

    And, Jeff, thanks for being the mailman on top of everything else.

    — craig

  29. May 17, 2010 8:46 pm

    As a somewhat reserved member of this “family,” I too want to welcome Craig and Suzanne the ButterflyChaser. I applaud your statement and I admire your eloquence. Being able to articulate what you feel and what you want is key, IMHO.
    Amazing how easy the decision can be — my spouse and I knew we were done when OSA showed up on our doorstep with confidential emails in hand and demanded that we disconnect from a beloved family member. It was very funny to us that this person thought we would do as she said. We just laughed. “You picked the wrong family to tangle with, sister! Do what you gotta do.” We were informed by letter that we should come to the Org and view our declare and begin our “handling.” We laughed again.
    We’ve been laughing ever since.

    • lunamoth permalink
      May 17, 2010 9:08 pm

      “We just laughed. “You picked the wrong family to tangle with, sister! Do what you gotta do.” We were informed by letter that we should come to the Org and view our declare and begin our “handling.” We laughed again. We’ve been laughing ever since.”

      Wow! You guys are my heroes! LOL!


      p.s. Did you ever find out how they got their grubby little hands your emails? I’m sure we would all
      like to know THAT!

      • Arlo permalink
        May 17, 2010 11:43 pm

        In fact, they had a spy posting in a member’s only chat group (XSO) and even though we were using fake names, one particular story that I told seemed to identify us. So they printed the emails — some were not too friendly about what was going on in the SO.

        The beloved family member is Jeff.

      • lunamoth permalink
        May 18, 2010 2:59 am

        AH! I see! LOL. She WAS tangling with the wrong family, wasn’t she!

    • craig houchin permalink
      May 17, 2010 9:14 pm


      That must have been back when OSA had more soldiers to send out on intimidation missions. Excommunication by Facebook is kinda lame.

      Keep laughing.

    • Sinar permalink
      May 17, 2010 9:39 pm

      Arlo, you guys have a great sense of humot!

    • earthmother permalink
      May 17, 2010 10:51 pm

      OMG, Arlo, I am laughing right now!! I received a Comm Ev a while back, and my husband said as I fed it to the shredder, “yeah, right, like THAT’LL make you want to come in”. We laugh a lot more these days, and afternoons and evenings, and nights…..:-)

    • Just Me permalink
      May 18, 2010 1:00 am

      And I’m laughing too, Arlo — which is the exactly right response to such a clueless “knock on the door.”

      Bless their little pea-pickin’ hearts!

      Just Me

    • May 18, 2010 9:46 pm

      I have my portion of joy too, Arlo! :)
      How can anyone prevent you from living your life and deciding for your connectons to your loved ones.
      Church of $¢i€₦₮o£og¥ ? – Hell, no!

  30. craig houchin permalink
    May 17, 2010 11:05 pm

    Well, the Church has acted quickly and efficiently this time. They’ve removed our family photo and success story from the Church website where it had resided since 1998. I guess they really have streamlined getting rid of people.

    • lunamoth permalink
      May 17, 2010 11:25 pm

      Finally, something they’re good at…

      • sherrymk permalink
        May 18, 2010 3:47 am

        hahahahahahah! You crack me up Lunamoth.

      • TheEmperorIsNaked permalink
        May 18, 2010 5:03 am

        Well, they are good at regging too. Don’t forget their top skill.

        But it is good they added this to the list. :)

  31. John Doe permalink
    May 17, 2010 11:06 pm

    So thoughtful and well stated. Thank you for that, it helps.

    To Suzanne: AKA, Butterfly Chaser. I knew that was you, even though we have yet to meet!

    To Lunamoth: Thanks for the shout-out. Love you girl!

    Re- “Your Eternity”:

    I’ve been wanting to comment on this for a while. For years, I’ve cringed when scientologists would throw that phrase around, “Your Eternity”, as in:

    Reg: “How are you going to secure Your Eternity?” or,
    RTC: “Ensuring Your Eternity and that of the entire planet.”
    Etc., etc., ad nauseam.

    We’ve all heard things like this. It bothers me to hear it because it shows the speaker of such phrases has a profound lack of understanding of what Eternity is. I suppose many people think of eternity as being some sort of long long tunnel into the creaky future, where a lot of unknowns lurk. Seems kind of dangerous. Better have some type of advantage…?

    Well, IMO, Eternity is the unchanging now-ness of NOW. So there you go. You are already here. Welcome to your eternity! I am delighted to be here with you!

  32. Suzanne permalink
    May 17, 2010 11:11 pm

    Oh, my dear friends – I think this blog has collectively attained the “Grade 0” EP. We really CAN talk about any subject! No “elephants in the room” anymore. We can discuss it all! Thanks, Idle Org, for asking the question when you did. It fit perfectly with the way the conversation had been moving. The responses you received were positively enlightening.

    As you might imagine, I’ve been handling a great deal of personal comm over the past few days which makes it so I can’t really get back to each individual who has posted here (as much as I want to!). I just want to say, once again, thank you for your caring and support. You guys totally rock. I will be back posting again soon. Please feel free to PM me or Craig via Facebook, or at

  33. May 18, 2010 3:16 am

    A very big, sincere THANK YOU to all who responded to my eternity woes!

    I’m humbled.

    I read every word, digested it all, had an F/N just sitting at my computer, and I don’t think it was due to my Taco Bell dinner! (The E/P of that is actually heartburn) :-)

    I’m literally breathing a sigh of relief. The common denominator of comm from you all is “know what you know”. (the exact opposite of what’s being taught in DM’s church).

    I think the thing that grabs me most is that we all like to help one another, with real vigor. And the help is decidedly better quality when it comes from people who are now FREE. There are no strings attached. It’s pretty special being a part of this new group. It “breathes”, whereas in the church, I always felt like I was “holding my breath”.

    Craig, congrats to you and your beautiful wife! I appreciate the comm from you (as well as everyone else!). Very glad you are now free!

    You’re all OT in my book. Or should I say, you all kick-ass! You all help. You’re all great! You and I have been through something pretty crappy recently but we’re all pulling through it. The faster we pull through, the more prepared we’ll be to help MANY others who will indeed be turning to us for help once they leave the church. Something we will be seeing a lot more of soon, I have a feeling.

    Perhaps we all have “Caring about others” disorder. LOL

    Lastly, I’ve posted the following link in several spots and gotten awesome feedback. If you are an artist, or if you dig aesthetics, and if you care about kids, then this is for you. It will key you out. This guy is uptone! He even puts ADHD and medication in their proper place….the garbage can. It’s also quite funny. Consider it my exchange!

    Thanks all!
    Idle Org :-)

  34. gsmoore permalink
    May 18, 2010 7:53 am

    Oh IdleOrg — tears in my eyes and LOL, all at the same time…. What a trip, no?!

  35. Karen permalink
    May 18, 2010 4:02 pm

    Craig & Suzanne,

    Thank you for sharing your story about your search for truth and decision to leave the church and Scientology. As more and more people communicate, the church crimes will be harder and harder to ignore. Thank you for your support and back up in getting the truth known.

  36. May 18, 2010 6:52 pm

    Congrats guys! And thank you for telling your story!

  37. May 18, 2010 7:39 pm

    Congratulations ! Glad you are out of the trap.

  38. Tom permalink
    May 18, 2010 8:31 pm

    It is not often that emotions overcome me, but I wept with joy reading this.


    Welcome to Humanity.
    Welcome to your life.
    Welcome to freedom.

    Thank you!

  39. Anonymous Warrior permalink
    May 19, 2010 2:06 am

    This is such joyous news, Craig and Suzanne. I have been slogging it out in the trenches for the last two years with >9000 anons. It is heartening to see you come out into the sunlight, and keeps me and other anons going to dismantle the evil regime of David Miscavige.


  40. May 19, 2010 4:03 am

    Dear Craig and Suzanne,

    What a wonderful story! I love that you both left, are happily out and sharing your
    story. Congratulations!!!
    You’ve probably heard the fact that in politics for every 1 letter written they count it
    as 100 people. It’s my opinion that for every Scientologist who leaves and shares their
    story, it equals 1,000 people. Thank you **very** much, to you both, Jeff and all here.
    I love you all :) Tory/Magoo

  41. May 20, 2010 12:13 am

    Dear Craig and Suzanne,

    Thank you so much for writing this and doing so here on Jeff’s blog. It’s heartening to read that the information on the internet played an important part in your exodus. I, like you, spent years not discussing scientology, nor looking on the internet. Life was never the same since I dared take a peek, lol.

    Back before ESMB and WWP forums, so many of the stories you probably read about were mentioned on Operation Clambake message board, alt.religion.scientology, the aol forum and posted on sites like,, FactNet.. just to name a few.

    For those wanting to read up on the net, you can find liks to the many websites and stories by looking here:

    To All the Curious Current, Former and Never Members Of Scientology

    This site by Jean-Luc Barbier lists the above links and so many others

    This Facebook Cop thing has been going on for a while. Jojo seems to have no life but writing KRs and emails to report the ‘disaffected’! It’s sad. Jim Meskimen is another JoJo, except he’s like the handler for the waivering celebrities. I wrote a story about this back in January.

    You’ve done a terrific job in how you are handling all this. I was pleasantly surprised to read in the comments that Suzanne is our ButterflyChaser at ESMB!!
    I posted your comment here so the members can see that the article is in part about one of our own :)

    Best wishes to you , your loved ones.

    aka AnonyMary & Out_Of_The_Dark

  42. June 9, 2010 6:11 pm

    WOW! I love this! Even when arriving “late” to the celebration, I can still experience the entire celebration. Time is indeed an illusion.

    Craig & Suzanne, the Buttefly Chaser, what a marvelous post! By all means, Congratulations! It’s great to have you two and your children out of the snare and back into overt circulation again.

    Craig, I’ve truly enjoyed the breif exchanges we’ve had over the past months as well as your comments on the various blogs. Also, I very much appreciate that you bothered to join Walking Around the Elephant. Thank you for that. Suzanne, your comments, wherever I have read them, are always precious pearls of perspective (PPP). For example, just look at all the wonderful and insightful comments from such special beings that have gathered here around your posts.

    Suzanne, in your informing us about some of yours and Craig’s skills, talents and know-how, I am reminded of a comment that (I think) lunamoth once posted somewhere in the blogsea. The comment (super paraphrased and embellished here) expressed a wonder that, due to attracting and holding onto such an aggregation of incredibly bright, able and caring beings into the Scn belief system, that the CoS had managed to cloister off from society and use as captive slaves, the very beings that were capable of actually improving the conditions on this planet. Was this the intention all along? (not a rhetorical question)

    Eternity is NOW.

    All the best Craig and Suzanne. I look forward to further adventure and exploration with the both of you.



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